Sunday, January 04, 2009

It's a BOY!!!

We are home from the hospital and enjoying life as a family of four! Here's a little recap of the day Graydon was born.

Before heading off to the hospital, we decided to take one last photo of the belly. Here I am on the morning of December 31st. 41 weeks pregnant.We arrived at the hospital around 5:20am. They immediately put us in a room and gave me a robe to change in to. Once I was settled in, I was given an IV and hooked up to a fetal monitor. I loved having that monitor. I could look over and see the baby's heartrate any time I wanted, which really helped me to relax - knowing that everything was fine in there. Shortly after 7am, Andy got changed into his scrubs.Around 7:45am, I walked with the nurses to the OR and got prepped for surgery. For whatever reason, it took a little while to administer my spinal. I knew that it had taken effect when I felt that warm wave rush down my legs. They laid me down, pulled the curtain up, and then brought Andy in. I got a little emotional at this point as it really hit me how close we were to the birth of our next child. A few minutes later, the doctor said that he could see the baby's right ear. Soon the head was out and I heard those first beautiful cries. After a big push on my belly, our little one was officially born. Within moments, I heard the doctors and Andy all saying, "It's a boy!" I was filled with so much joy and just started crying. There are some moments in life that are just monumental. You want to remember every last detail about them. That is how I feel about hearing each of my kids' first cries and learning if they were a boy or girl. I wouldn't trade these moments and memories for anything.

Here's Graydon! 7 lbs. 1 oz. and 20 inches long. It's a good thing he had that extra week in there as he's still a peanut. I guess we just cook them little! The nurses took him and cleaned him up and then brought him over to me. I loved looking at this sweet face for the first time.Andy went with Graydon to the nursery while I stayed back and got stitched up. The anesthesiologist administered some sort of sedative to me that brought me into a very relaxing dream-like state while the doctors worked on me. I remember being able to hear their conversation but also drifting off into la la land. This did give me some much needed rest. Soon enough, I was able to go to the recovery room. After being there for a few minutes, they brought Graydon to me! Being with my baby in recovery was such a new experience for me as Bella had to go straight to the NICU. I got to hold Graydon right away and tried to nurse him. He ended up being too sleepy during that time so we tried again later. They have me all bundled up here as my body temp dropped down to 94. Andy eventually had to take Graydon from me as my low body temp. was starting to bring his down. Once my body temp reached 97.1, I was able to go to the Mother/Baby room where we stayed for the rest of our time at the hospital. After being settled in for a bit, Andy went to pick up Auntie Kristen and Bella so they could meet Graydon. While they were gone, I was treated to a half hour massage. It was heavenly! The first photo of our new family of four!!!Me and my kidS! I have KIDS! Plural! I love saying 'my kids.' Bella got this new t-shirt from her baby brother. After my surgery, I was on a liquid diet for 24 hours. Bella thought my italian ice looked pretty good.She saved the JELL-O for me. It's been fun to watch Bella's interactions with her little brother. At first, she was a little timid around him - not too sure if she wanted to hold him or give him a kiss. But after a short while, she forgot all of that. Now, she likes to hold him as often as she can and even gets a little territorial - not wanting to share him with others. I'm looking forward to watching their relationship grow over time. My Loves!A few more of Graydon at the hospital:I woke up on Friday morning feeling pretty emotional. The previous night had been a rough one for me. I was in a lot of pain and feeling a bit overwhelmed. I think that some of the postpartum hormones were starting to kick in as well - making every emotion a bit amplified. Andy got a call that Bella was not doing well at home, so he had to leave. I cried a little when he left and just really wished that my mom could be out here. Later that afternoon when Andy returned to the hospital, he asked if I was up for a couple of visitors. Right behind him was my sister Lori and my mom. Words can't express how happy I was to see them. I started crying again. This was the best gift. They already had to leave today; but they were here for exactly the time that I needed them most. Unfortunately, I don't have any photos from their visit on my camera. I'll have to get them from Lori.

On Friday evening, Graydon and I got to go home! I was so ready to leave the hospital. Here's Graydon getting dressed for the first time. He wore the Jelly Belly socks that Andy bought last month (in honor of his nickname).Strapped in and ready to go!Our first few days at home have been going well. Graydon is a pretty good baby. In his short life so far, we have learned a few things about this little boy:
1. He hates getting his diaper changed. You will hear the most traumatic, shrill cry ever during each change.
2. He's a great pooper. On Day 2, they hoped to see 2 wet diapers and 2 poopy ones. I'd say that he easily had at least 7 poopy diapers on Day 2.
3. He loves to eat. I think he'd be content to eat 24/7.

A few times today, I had a moment of panic when I realized that I haven't felt the baby move in a while. The panic would last just a split second as I remembered that I'm not pregnant anymore. Guess I got so used to being pregnant that it feels weird not to be. I'm just so grateful that Graydon is here and is healthy!

Monday, December 29, 2008

Another baby update. . .

I had my final doctor appointment this afternoon. Baby is still looking good. We didn't check my progression as it really doesn't matter at this point. We either go into labor tonight/tomorrow or get ourselves to the hospital at 5:30am on Wednesday morning for a c-section. While going into labor on my own is still a possibility, I'm prepared for the fact that I'll be having another c-section. And. . . I'm OK with that. My prayer throughout this pregnancy has been for God's hand to be on every detail and that I would have the delivery that I'm supposed to have. For reasons I may never know, a c-section may just be the safest delivery for me and Jellybean. Some people have mentioned to me that it must be a bummer to have waited it out only to end up with another c-section. I don't see it that way. We were able to spread out Bella and Jellybean's birthdays a little bit. We got past the busyness of Christmas. And, most likely, Jellybean will be able to celebrate his/her birthday with family every year - a real treat since we live so far away from everyone.

Heading into this delivery is so different than our experience with Bella. As of today, I've already carried Jellybean three weeks longer than I did Bella. Everything with her happened so fast. With Jellybean, things have been anything but. The c-section with Bella arose out of an emergency (her heartbeat had dropped pretty low for reasons they never detected). I didn't have time to think about the upcoming surgery or to fear it. It was medically necessary for her safety. But, knowing that I'm heading into a big surgery is kind of a weird feeling. I know what I'm getting into this time. While my c-section and recovery with Bella were as good as I could have hoped for, it was still surgery; and it would be dishonest to say that I don't have any nerves as I prepare for another surgery. But, I do feel at peace with the timing of everything. It's time for Jellybean to be born. After all that happened with Bella, I'm finding myself a little extra paranoid and anxious as this pregnancy continues. If the baby seems quiet/hasn't moved around much, I get a little scared. I'll jiggle my belly a little to try and stir this little one. Poor kid is just trying to sleep, but I need to feel these movements in order to get through these last days and still remain sane. I'm definitely ready to meet this little one on the outside.

My next post should have our baby news! We'll finally know if Jellybean is a boy or a girl, how big Jellybean is, what Jellybean looks like, etc. I'll do my best to update the blog as soon as I can, but realistically, I may not get any info or photos up until after I get home from the hospital.

We'd love your continued prayers as we head into Jellybean's birth and the early days with a new baby!

Friday, December 26, 2008

Kilps' Christmas '08

Twas the night before Christmas Eve. . .
Bella and Mommy - just settled down for a long winter's nap. I can't seem to make it through the day without napping. My energy levels are at an all time low. Poor Bella has been fighting a cold and is currently healing from an ear infection. We had a few rough nights this week that culminated with her crying in the middle of the night that her ear hurt. She described it as "a bug bit me in my ear." I took her to the doctor the next morning and, sure enough, the ear in pain was infected (the other ear is perfectly fine). Nothing that a little Amoxicillin and ear drops can't help.

Naptime is over and Bella has decided that my belly would make a great desk for her computer.
Christmas Eve. . .
My pretty girl all dressed up. She wore her flower girl dress again. This time, she couldn't wait to put it on (unlike the morning of the wedding when we pretty much had to force her into it). All morning she kept asking if she could put her dress on and I kept telling her to wait until later in the evening because I didn't want her to get it dirty. When it came time to finally get dressed, she was so excited! She even let me put her hair in pigtails - which is so rare. When she was all ready, she raced to the full length mirror in the hallway so that she could admire herself. She even posed for some photos in front of the tree - also very rare.I am now sporting "puffy pregnant lady face". I don't notice it as much when I looke in the mirror - but it's hard to mistake when I see the photos. . . After church and just before bedtime, we let Bella open up one gift.Dora pajamas!!!All ready for bed!Here's our tree all lit up with the presents underneath! The big gift this year was this Radio Flyer wagon. It was actually a combined gift for Bella and Jellybean. Besides the wagon, we got Bella some books and puzzles and filled her stocking with socks, underwear, bubble bath, etc. Jellybean also got a book, wipes, and some bath soap. Beyond that, all of the other gifts were from family and church members.
Christmas Morning!
I didn't take a picture of it, but we lit our final candle on our Advent wreath after singing 'Joy to the World'. We want Bella to always be mindful of why we truly celebrate Christmas. It was a proud moment for me at the doctor's office when the doctor asked Bella what Santa was going to bring her and she said that we'll open presents because it's Jesus' birthday. I think she's getting it.
Opening up one of her presents.Another little thing we stuck in her stocking was this window chalk. We had to take a break from gift opening for a while so that she could play with this and some of her other toys.
Here she is standing in front of the new wagon!She couldn't wait to take it for a spin. And, do you like her crazy hair! We wasted no time with making ourselves presentable that morning!
Kristen took this little family photo for us. As you can see, I also did not waste any time with making myself presentable either. :)
We took another break from gift opening to eat breakfast. In fact, one might say that we're in another break as we speak since there are still some unopened gifts under our tree. Bella just gets really excited about everything she opens. She likes to spend time playing with it before moving on to something else. I'm fine with that - it kind of stretches out the holiday a bit. Anyway, here is Andy serving up his big breakfast: scrambled eggs, sausage, english muffins, hash browns, and orange juice. Very yummy! After breakfast, we decided to bundle up a bit and take that wagon for a spin!At that point, Bella was more interested in running around playing with Auntie Kristen. And yes, she is dressed up as a princess again. She loves those princess dresses!
Later on, we feasted on a Christmas dinner, played games, and worked on a puzzle (currently still under construction). It was a very Merry Christmas!
Now. . . we just continue to wait for the baby! If all goes as it is supposed to, this baby will be here no later than the 31st! We're almost there!

Monday, December 22, 2008

Baby Update

We had another doctor appt. today. Still no progress. At our previous appointment, the doctor said he'd put us in the schedule for a c-section on the Dec. 29th. Upon checking that over today, we learned that the hospital is booked for the 29th. We are now scheduled for December 31st, if I don't go into labor before then. That gives me two more days to see if my body/this baby will cooperate. No matter what, there should be a baby here in 9 days. While I'd love for this Jellybean to come soon, I think it might be nicer for him/her to have a birthday after Christmas - something to look forward to after such a big holiday. . . instead of having a birthday crammed in before or during all the Christmas festivities. So. . . we just wait. I'll do my best to keep everyone posted when things get moving over here.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Anticipating. . .

Beginning on the first Sunday of Advent (which also happened to be Bella's birthday) we've been lighting an Advent wreath at home. Each candle represents one week in Advent and the red candle in the middle is the Christ candle that we will light on Christmas morning. After lighting that first candle, it really hit me how close we were to having this baby. Each candle that was lit represented not only how how many weeks left until Christmas but also how many weeks until our baby's arrival. Tonight, we lit the fourth candle. By the time we light the red one, we'll have passed my due date (Dec. 24th).

For being just shy of 40 weeks pregnant, I'm doing pretty well. The anticipation has definitely reached an all time high. We can't wait to meet this little one and to find out of Jellybean is a boy or a girl. Of course, this baby doesn't seem to be in any hurry to get here. As of my last appointment, I haven't made much progress labor-wise. I go in again tomorrow for another check. That's my last appointment. Because of my previous c-section, I can't go past one week overdue and they won't induce me - it's an automatic repeat c-section. They currently have me on the schedule for a c-section on December 29th, if I haven't gone into labor on my own before them. That gives me one week. I'd really like to try and labor on my own since I never had that experience with Bella. Mostly, though, I just want a safe delivery for me and the baby and whatever way that happens to be, I'm going to be OK with it.

This is me today: 39 weeks, 4 days pregnant. Onto other things:

At my Moms' Club Christmas party, we did an activity similar to Build-a-Bear. Each kid had a Christmas toy to stuff and name. Bella picked a gingerbread toy. (And you'll notice that we were playing dress-up again that morning, which explains Bella's Sleeping Beauty attire. She didn't want to take it off). In goes the stuffing. Before closing her up, we had to put this little star inside. We named her 'Ginger'. There's a birth certificate and everything. And here is Bella with the finished product.We also made some Christmas cookies earlier in the week. Once Bella got hold of that rolling pin, it was hard to get it away from her. Bella and Auntie Kristen decorating the baked cookies. Kristen arrived in town on Tuesday and has been such a big help. It's so nice having her here!Deep concentration as Bella decides where the frosting should go. Our finished cookies! Can you tell which ones Bella decorated?Hope everyone has a Merry Christmas! (and that we have some baby news to share soon!)

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Jellybean's room and Christmas program

Other than one finishing touch, the baby's room is complete. Everything is set up, clothes are washed, and diapers are ready. I forgot to take before and after photos of this room, but it was pretty much a blank slate. When we moved here, we never really unpacked into this room because it was our hope that we'd use it as a nursery at some point. Here we are! Now that we are using it, our house feels that much bigger. Bella and I love to come in here during the day. I'll sit in the glider and she will look through Jellybean's books. It's really a pretty relaxing place to spend time.

The furniture in here is pretty much a mish mash of things. The crib was a hand-me-down that Bella also used. The changing table is another hand-me-down from a different family. We found the white dresser and night stand sitting out on a curb (can't beat that price)! And a lot of things I've been putting together over the past few months. (A close look at the curtains will reveal how inept I am at sewing in a straight line).

Here is a view of the room from the hallway. A few steps into the roomI'm thinking that we'll probably move the little swing downstairs eventually, but for now it'll stay here.The final touch to this room will be the baby's name above the crib. We obviously can't do that part yet since we don't know if Jellybean is a boy or girl.Here are a few of the finishing touches that I made:
The Family WallUltrasound Photo with Psalm 139: 13-18Hanging Frame (will fill with more photos when baby arrives)Growth Chart (hung on closet door)Today at church was the children's Christmas program. It was so cute! Bella did a little recitation, sung with her beginner's class, and then was a sheep for the Christmas story. I was able to get a few pictures, but really wish I would have brought my video camera to tape her singing. She did a great job! I managed to have a pretty productive scrapbooking week. Here are some of the layouts I did:
ANTICIPATINGFLOWER GIRL
BELLA'S THIRD BIRTHDAYOur dental appointments went really well! Bella was awesome and so brave! I went back with her for her exam and cleaning. She didn't cry or get freaked out and was really excited to get a new toothbrush, floss, stickers, and bouncy ball! Guess I was worried about nothing!
My sister, Kristen, is coming into town on Tuesday! She'll be here for the next few weeks! We're all so excited to see her!